I will not beg you for your time or try to convince you to choose me, the world is too big and I have too much to offer
- unknown-
To love oneself is the beginning of lifelong romance
- Oscar Wilde -
One night, I was taking a walk and enjoying eclectic energies from night clubs, Cafes & restaurants and people from all walks of life in downtown.
It was around the time that I let go of a piece of me which grew to be a little toxic in me. That piece was "self-indulgence" stemming from my ultra ego. I know that I got to let it go sooner or later, otherwise, I will be self-deluded.
So, my life did rare thing that night.
I picked up a sandwich that I rarely eat. I was not even hungry.
And I talked to a stranger which I rarely do although my friend insists that I am the first one who talk to strangers...No, I don't.
That night was exceptional because I could not resist saying "Smile!" to a sad and stressed profile.
It was like a piece of art that has damage and future with beautifully corrupted expression.
He looked at me and I saw a glimpse of his smile but the soul that had been damaged could not sustain that smile.
I thought....
if I could touch his heart and change it to something positive even for a moment,
I would find a meaning of life, a true meaning of life, a true self that I had been promised to be.
Our conversation was norm but the intensity of honesty and trust was surreal.
When he gave me a big hug and I hug him back the same way, I knew I touched his heart.
There was a universality in that hug that would never fade away...
care, trust and friendship.
I may never see him again but I felt so fulfilled because I knew he would be fine.
He will find a way out of the struggle.
The world is too big.
I have too much to offer and he had too much to offer regardless of what life condition he was in.
He enabled me to do something that I have been wanting to do for a long time.
He enabled the beginning of my lifelong romance that is to love myself.
It was around the time that I let go of a piece of me which grew to be a little toxic in me. That piece was "self-indulgence" stemming from my ultra ego. I know that I got to let it go sooner or later, otherwise, I will be self-deluded.
So, my life did rare thing that night.
I picked up a sandwich that I rarely eat. I was not even hungry.
And I talked to a stranger which I rarely do although my friend insists that I am the first one who talk to strangers...No, I don't.
That night was exceptional because I could not resist saying "Smile!" to a sad and stressed profile.
It was like a piece of art that has damage and future with beautifully corrupted expression.
He looked at me and I saw a glimpse of his smile but the soul that had been damaged could not sustain that smile.
I thought....
if I could touch his heart and change it to something positive even for a moment,
I would find a meaning of life, a true meaning of life, a true self that I had been promised to be.
Our conversation was norm but the intensity of honesty and trust was surreal.
When he gave me a big hug and I hug him back the same way, I knew I touched his heart.
There was a universality in that hug that would never fade away...
care, trust and friendship.
I may never see him again but I felt so fulfilled because I knew he would be fine.
He will find a way out of the struggle.
The world is too big.
I have too much to offer and he had too much to offer regardless of what life condition he was in.
He enabled me to do something that I have been wanting to do for a long time.
He enabled the beginning of my lifelong romance that is to love myself.
