You know I am feeling more...

I had always been wanting to know who truly were those people who asked me a strange question, "Do you own a home?"

while I wanted to ask a question," Do you own a pet? Do you like dogs? " 

I had always been wondering why I don't care so much about going to Caribbean cruise like others do, 
while I care so much driving at twilight hour in the evening around beautiful neighborhood near downtown Austin and starring at old luxury homes.

I had always been wondering why people ask questions such as "why don't you want to marry again? " "Why don't you want to date?"
while I wanted to respond "Why do I want to?"

I maybe be weird or selfish but I have learned exactly what my soul needs to rejuvenate my life, such as;

I would rather have roughly chopped iceberg lettuce salad with real buttered toast than elegant pieces of spring salad mix with multi grain breads.

I would rather be alone and throwing frisbee for my dog at my backyard and may be eating Ochazuke (steamed rice with hot green tea) than going to a restaurant that I rarely go with bunch of people to celebrate acquaintance's birthday and don't know what to order.

However, when I stopped analyzing those people and even stopped analyzing my feelings of sadness and joy, I started having full of desires, hopes and dreams.  

When I heard my musician friend singing a Beatles song "Your mother should know" at his mother's funeral, I felt that song more than I ever felt before....

I am living full and thinking less, and you know, I am feeling more.